~~Interesting Conversation with Rebecca earlier~~


dabopgk: k, sorry bout that
erinlJONES: no prob.
erinlJONES: anyways....
dabopgk: hows the season going thus far
erinlJONES: its good, now because of friday we're 81-2
erinlJONES: 8-1-2
dabopgk: that is pretty good
dabopgk: i think we're 7-3
dabopgk: all 7 wins were shut outs
erinlJONES: awesome
erinlJONES: ok, we always talk about soccer, lets talk about something else for once
dabopgk: ok.... girls? school? college?
dabopgk: pick
erinlJONES: you pick
erinlJONES: something less stressful than girls, lol
dabopgk: not doing so good aye? *smiles*
dabopgk: i don't know who's worse, the girls or the damn boys
erinlJONES: why do you say that
dabopgk: nope, you get to pick, i asked you first *muahaha*
dabopgk: because boys are assholes
dabopgk: but girls drive me nuts
erinlJONES: well since you went ahead and mention girls, then i techinically already got you to choose, lol. why are boys assholes
dabopgk: they either live to far away or they aren't very nice or they're straight
erinlJONES: oic, so does this relate to your latest distance entry?
dabopgk: not boys as individuals, but as groups.... and because they think with their penius
erinlJONES: true
dabopgk: kind of, i'm just frusterated with being single and then having someone in austin, a new girl, not analise, that i wish i could be with but knows its impossible
erinlJONES: just to be blunt everything is impossible with you
erinlJONES: and to be honest, you should try be single for awhile, you jump from person to person, which i think is why things tend not to work out, but well sorry i guess thats not really any of my business
dabopgk: nah, we're talking, you have the right to say anything you want to
dabopgk: i was by myself for a long time before mayra......
erinlJONES: not really
erinlJONES: if you think about it
dabopgk: donovan and i were over in june
dabopgk: i didn't really get with her until october
dabopgk: she and i just talked about it, nothing more
erinlJONES: key words, talked about it
erinlJONES: cause she wasn't here until then, am i right
dabopgk: nope, she was in town in august
dabopgk: we met officially in september
erinlJONES: if you're not with someone, you're always thinking about being with someone, you find someone on the net or someone in real life that you like, or they're interesting, or whatever, you develope a crush, and then you go from there, perhaps moving too fast, or whatever
dabopgk: i enjoy being in relationships but its not like i skip around randomly
dabopgk: yes, the beginning of my junior year i did
dabopgk: i was in analise recovery
dabopgk: since my second semester junior year i've only dated four people
dabopgk: megan, you, donovan and mayra
erinlJONES: wow
erinlJONES: lol actually i wouldn't say you really dated me, but ok. lol still i see that as bouncing around, but thats just me
dabopgk: brb
erinlJONES: ok
dabopgk: sorry about that, phone call
erinlJONES: cool
dabopgk: yeah, i'm not perfect, i'm an asshole sometimes, not denying it
erinlJONES: sometimes?
dabopgk: but, four in a year is a hell of a lot better than 8 in four months
dabopgk: are you implying that i'm always an asshole?
erinlJONES: maybe
dabopgk: well, i'm not quite sure what to say about that erin
erinlJONES: lol
dabopgk: were you kidding?
dabopgk: or serious?
erinlJONES: no i was serious
dabopgk: qualify that statement
erinlJONES: what do you mean?
dabopgk: explain
erinlJONES: which statemenr
erinlJONES: t
dabopgk: sorry about that, computer kicked me off
erinlJONES: its ok
dabopgk: last thing that i got was me saying explain
erinlJONES: that i was serious
dabopgk: yes, explain why you think i am always an asshole
erinlJONES: i didn't say always
dabopgk: dabopgk: yeah, i'm not perfect, i'm an asshole sometimes, not denying it
dabopgk: but, four in a year is a hell of a lot better than 8 in four months
erinlJONES: cool
erinlJONES: sometimes?
dabopgk: are you implying that i'm always an asshole?
erinlJONES: maybe
dabopgk: what else could that mean?
erinlJONES: well you see i would, but then i know you, and you will come up with some excuse even though it may be a real excuse, it will still be the same, an excuse
dabopgk: that doesn't make any sense
erinlJONES: ok i would explain why i think your an asshole, but your response would simply be an excuse
dabopgk: so, if i'm an asshole, why do you continually try to keep connected to me?
dabopgk: obviously, i must have some kind of redeeming qualities or you would have given up by now
erinlJONES: maybe cause i have faith in you, that you'll change
erinlJONES: plus well i don't give up on people
dabopgk: i feel very frusterated with you right now.
erinlJONES: good
dabopgk: and why would that be good?
erinlJONES: because it just is, means i've got you thinking
dabopgk: no, that means you've pissed me off, two very different things
erinlJONES: ok
erinlJONES: either way, still is good to me
erinlJONES: how have i pissed you off?
dabopgk: first, i was looking forward to a nice, slightly normal conversation with you, second, it didn't happen, third, i feel that judgement that you have made against me is not qualified. while i admit my actions towards you were not something i would be proud of, i do not think that they justify that opinion of me. fourth, you barely know me, you are barely involved in my life, you have no idea what kind of person i am.
dabopgk: fifth, i feel very much like lashing out at you, saying things that i halfheartedly mean, but only because i'm taking this personally. in no way do i think that i am a complete asshole. i am me, and if you don't like it, get over it. i don't need you patrionizing me with your "not giving up" stuff. i need no one to wait for me to change.
erinlJONES: congratulations Rebecca, this is the first real conversation that we've ever had, and is it my fault i'm not involved in your life, i've tried and tried and tried, and continue to try but it never seems to work out. And by the way feel free to say anything that comes to mind, it sucks to hold things back, i've realized that, whats the pointing of holding back what you feel
erinlJONES: so tell me, who are you?
dabopgk: i'm not holding back what i feel, i am editing my immediate response to critisism, which would have been immediate critisism of you and thus not constructive
dabopgk: rebecca
erinlJONES: lol true
erinlJONES: feel free criticize me
erinlJONES: tell me what you really think
erinlJONES: atleast i won't deny
erinlJONES: it
erinlJONES: well?
dabopgk: i won't criticize you in anger
erinlJONES: why, thats when its the most pure
erinlJONES: brb going to go outside real quick
dabopgk: no, thats when its fear motivated
erinlJONES: fear?
erinlJONES: explain
erinlJONES: why fear?
erinlJONES: so what you're too mad to talk to me now?
dabopgk: no, i just don't feel that i have any need to explain anything to you
dabopgk: there is no reason why i would want to talk to someone who thinks i'm an asshole all the time. i'm not an idiot, if you feel that way about me, there is no reason for me to continue bothering you
erinlJONES: i didn't say you were an idiot
dabopgk: no, but your actions imply it
erinlJONES: how is that
erinlJONES: and i never said you were bothering me
dabopgk: erin, i am done with this conversation
dabopgk: you have been utmostly rude and i'm finished
erinlJONES: i'm sorry for being rud
erinlJONES: rude
dabopgk: good night
dabopgk signed off at 7:50:20 PM.
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