Monday, September 26, 2005

MYSPACE:

Subject: Fruity Pebbles
Posted Date: Monday, September 26, 2005 - 3:38 PM

I'm just chilling here eating fruity pebbles, haven't had them in years, they're very yummy. I'm uber tired today, had class at 8 and 10 then practice, and it was so f'ing hot today. But its all good I suppose. I had a blast last night at the Melissa Ferrick concert, shes amazing. And so are Natalia and Lorena.  I really did have a good time, i can't help but be mesmerized by beautiful women who sing and play the guitar.  But came home and slept on my closet floor for the 2nd night in a row, lol don't ask.  Just know i'm weird like that. 

So let me think..... PRIDE.  Did anyone see me there? I know a few did. I was working of course, but got to be in the parade because of it, I was on the 7th float, for Buddies.  Then worked all night, and ended up getting screwed out of like $60, glad it was my last day.  Just frustrates me cause when the other barbacks got sick, and i had to cover their asses, i didn't complain i just did it, cause it was my job.  The only thing I expected was to get recognized for it, ya know some form of appreciation or acknowledgment that i helped them.  But nope nothing from them or my managers, and in the end my managers gave the other barbacks more money.  And FYI don't talk about it when you know i'm right outside the door, i'm not deaf.  BUT anyways, one of the bartenders and the boss's personal asst. (kind of a manager i guess) thanked me for what i did. So it was good enough i guess. I had a blast that day, worked my ass off, literally sprinting between the bars.  And half the night i was just in my sports bra and shorts. Oh and for awhile just a towel and my undies cause they threw me in the pool. It was fun, lots of friends were there.  LMAO and some passed out in a chair, no names mentioned. I really wish i could have jumped off the parade and hung out with people.  So i ended up having fun, being tired as hell, short on money, and left with a hell of a sunburn (like i'm talking 3rd degree burn on my tummy), oh and had a allergic reaction with my medicine from being out in the sun all day (and for gayday and 6 flags) its not a perty sight (lol its not that bad just my arms and a little on my neck have tons of spots that look like tiny bruises, its weird). And i'm sure ya'll so wanted to know that.

So have i mentioned that I'm playing soccer this year, I wasn't going to, but my team got me to come back.  Friday was my 4th game back i think, it was cool cause basically my whole family was there, mom-dad-both brothers, and thes step-dad, and of course Sara and Jen, and my puppy Draco.  It was nice to have them all there.  Alot of people from my gay crowd said they were going to come, but they never showed :( meh... can't depend on some people from the bar i suppose, but some of my friend from there were working i know.  Lol so whoever didn't come, has to make it up to me. Next home game is October 8th, its a saturday, at 1 p.m. Better be there, lol.

Hmm.... well i think thats it, i think i'm going to go veg out in front of the tv for a bit before i have to study for my test tomorrow.  Yay for me.  Hope ya'll have a good night.  Laters

Saturday, September 24, 2005

I noticed today, that someone from her school read my blogger, perhaps her? Little does she know that truely miss her and wish i hadn't been a fuck up. Meh... i made the decision, no sense in regretting it. Besides we've both moved on, but that doesn't mean i can't miss her, right??

Thursday, September 22, 2005

MYSPACE:

Subject: .......
Posted Date: Thursday, September 22, 2005 - 11:49 PM
i miss you

Monday, September 12, 2005

*~*~Wishes~*~*

Do you ever wish you could just share yourself with the world, I mean every little detail, just every part of who you are. I want to do this every day. I wish I could just lay it all down and be like look here it all is, here are the blueprints of who I am. I just want to flow with my environment rather than having to protect myself or hide who I really am from everyone. It is no way to live. Since I've been back to school i've caught myself, shielding who I am in some sort of way to prevent who I'm talking to from feeling awkward or something. Like I forget hey I'm not at the bar where I'm around a ton of gay people, these people at school I don't have any idea about how they'd react to things I'd normally say. I keep almost slipping, and I'm like whoops my bad, can't say that. Like the simplest of things like me saying a girl is cute. I can't say that around most straight people. And even those few who I know are gay or bi or whatever, I still don't feel comfortable enough talking about things with them. Like its not my place. Suppose its just cause i'm not used to them. School and soccer brings up old feelings for me. Mostly, insecurity. I know who I am and I love who I am, but who I am is not accepted my most of society. Its sad that in a free country I can be afraid of my own friends, family, and neighbors. People can turn on you amazingly quick. I can't tell you how many times I've felt my heart break because of someone I loved. I fear that feeling.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

MYSPACE:

Subject: this is sad.
Posted Date: Sunday, September 11, 2005 - 2:09 PM

Haha so i finally gave in to doing this.  And I could of told you right off the bat that I didn't have a life. 

Supposedly if you've seen over 70, you have no life. Number the ones you've seen.

() Rocky Horror Picture Show
(1) Grease
(2) Pirates of the Caribbean
() Boondock Saints
(3) The Mexican
(4) Fight Club
(5) Starsky and Hutch
(6) Neverending Story
() Blazing Saddle
() Airplane
() The Princess Bride
() Young Frankenstien
() AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
(7) Napoleon Dynamite
(8) Saw
() White Noise
() White Oleander
(9) Anger Management
(10) 50 First Dates
() Jason X
(11) Scream
(12) Scream 2
(13) Scream 3
(14) Scary Movie
(15) Scary Movie 2
() Scary Movie 3
(16) American Pie
(17) American pie 2
(18) American Wedding
(19)Harry Potter
() Harry Potter 2
() Harry Potter 3
() Resident Evil I
() Resident Evil 2
(20)The Wedding Singer
(21)Little Black Book
()The Village
()Donnie Darko
(22) Lilo & Stitch
(23) Finding Nemo
(24) Finding Neverland
() 13 Ghosts
(25) Signs
() The Grinch
(26) Texas Chainsaw Massacre(original)
() White Chicks
(27) Butterfly Effect
(28) Thirteen Going on 30
(29) I, Robot
(30) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(31) Universal Soldier
() A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came Polly
(32) Deep Impact
(33) KingPin
(34) Never Been Kissed
(35) Meet The Parents
(36) Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
() A Cinderella Story
() the Terminal
() The Lizzie McGuire Movie
() Passport to Paris
(37) Dumb & Dumber
() Dumb & Dumberer
(38) Final Destination
(39) Final Destination 2
() Halloween
() The Ring
() The Ring 2
(40)Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(41) Practical Magic
() Chicago
() Ghost Ship
() From Hell
() Hellboy
(42) Secret Window
(43) I Am Sam
(44) The Whole Nine Yards
(45) The Day After Tomorrow
() Child's Play
() Bride of Chucky
(46) Ten Things I Hate About You
(47) Just Married
(48) Gothika
() Nightmare on Elm Street
() Sixteen Candles
() Coach Carter
(49) Bad Boys
(50) Bad Boys 2
(51) Joy Ride
(52) Seven
(53) Ocean's Eleven
() Ocean's Twelve
(54) Identity
() Lone Star
() Bedazzled
(54) Predator I
(55) Predator II
(56) Independence Day
() Cujo
() A Bronx Tale
() Darkness Falls
() Christine
(57) ET
() Children of the Corn
(58) My Boss' daughter
(59) Maid in Manhattan
(60) Frailty
() Best Bet
(61) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(62) She's All That
() Calendar Girls
() Sideways
(63) Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
(64) Ever After
(65) Forrest Gump
() Big Trouble in Little China
(66) X-men
(67) X-2
() Jeepers Creepers
() Jeepers Creepers 2
(68) Catch Me If You Can
() The Others
(69) Freaky Friday(original)
() Reign of Fire
(70) Cruel Intentions
(71) The Hot Chick
(72) Swimfan
() Miracle
(73) Old School
() Ray
(74) The Notebook
(75) K-Pax
() Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
() Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
() Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(76) A Walk to Remember
() Boogeyman
(77) Hitch
(78) The Fifth Element
() Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
() Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
() Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
() Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
() Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
() Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi...
() Troop Beverly Hills
() Swimming with Sharks
(79) Air Force One
(80) For Richer or Poorer
(81) Trainspotting
() People Under the Stairs
() Blue Velvet
() Sound of Music
(82) Parent Trap (old version)
(83) Parent Trap (lindsey lohan version)
() The Burbs
(84) The Terminator
(85) Empire Records
(86) Interview with the Vampire
() SLC Punk
(87) Meet Joe Black
(88) Nightmare Before Christmas
() The Silence of the Lambs
(89) Sleepy Hollow
() I Heart Huckabees
() 24 Hour Party People
() Labyrinth
() The Black Cauldron
(90) Kill Bill Volume One
(91) Kill Bill Volume Two

Saturday, September 10, 2005

MYSPACE:

Subject: drunkeness
Posted Date: Saturday, September 10, 2005 - 6:18 AM
I really shouldn't hit on people i like when i'm drunk, i think i make an ass of myself!! Damn soco and coke ='s Erin is really drunk still and i have practice in a couple of minutes. Yay, funfun, i'm probably going to throw up.. Laters.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

MYSPACE:

Subject: just one question
Posted Date: Thursday, September 08, 2005 - 6:15 PM
Anyone want to come over and cuddle with me?