Subject random
Posted Date: Friday, January 27, 2006 - 3:50 PM

"How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back. There are some things that time can not mend. Some hurts that go too deep... that have taken hold."

"Everything I've ever wanted was on the other side of fear"

"I've heard her called a quitter for leaving and aimless wanderer. But not all who wander are aimless, especially those who seek truth beyond traditions, beyond definition, beyond the image."

"From day one I talked about getting out

But not forgetting about

How my worst fears are letting out

He said why put a new address

On the same old loneliness

When breathing just passes the time

Until we all just get old and die

Now talking's just a waste of breath

And living's just a waste of death

And why put a new address

On the same old loneliness

And this is you and me

And me and you

Until we've got nothing left"

I miss her so much. I can be right next to her and feel so far away. It hurts so much knowing that she hates me and won't speak to me. But I deserve it, I really really do. *sigh* goodnight.

Subject have i mentioned
Posted Date: Tuesday, January 17, 2006 - 3:31 AM

So have I mentioned that i'm moving? Yes, I finally made up my mind, its official, i'm moving when my lease it up. I decided before xmas or so, but just now feel like telling people. Still not going to tell you where though, not just yet. when i have more time I will, and when i get all the details and kinks worked out. Been working on them for awhile now, which is why i've been so stressed out, and have been distancing myself from everyone (well thats part of the reason atleast, but mostly its cause i've been taking care of myself.... for once). Anyways, this is it for now, feel free and leave me comments or ask whatever. Ok, adios.

I am so fucking stressed out right now, its ridiculous, but I can't talk to many people about it, so this sucks. I can I suppose, but its still something i'm keeping a secret. I've been meaning to write about my plans but I haven't found the time or motivation to do it. I'll be working on that soon. But otherwise I'm good. Just stressing the fuck out. fun. well thats it for now, adios.

Subject my dog wets the bed
Posted Date: Monday, January 09, 2006 - 9:12 PM

This ones for you Sara B.

Do you remember the time you slept over and I thought at first you wet the bed, only to realize when you felt it too that my dog had peed in the bed.  And we were both like WTF.  And you still think to this day that he just wanted to pee on you. Even though a week or so later he did the exact same thing. And still haven't figured it out. 

Well ladies and gents, I have figured it out. My dog quite simply does just wet the bed just like an average little kid. Weird eh? I just came to this revelation because well I was just sitting there watching tv with my dog and cat cuddled up next to me. when my dog freaks out and jumps off the couch, and i felt something wet hit my arm.  So I look down and my couch is all wet and my cat looks at me like WTF was that about, then looks at himself (as if thinking, eww...WTF why am I wet).  So not only did my dog pee in his sleep on the couch, but he managed to do it with my cat next to him and essentially pissed on my cat too. 

Now, really ya can't tell me that this is fucking hilarious, gross, but freaking funny.  So glad that I have a slip cover for my couch, so it did really have a chance to soak into the cushion.  So anyways, thought it was funny, so i had to write about it as soon as possible.

Subject tired
Posted Date: Wednesday, January 04, 2006 - 5:05 AM

i'm so tired right now, mostly from work i guess. Here goes another fun filled day of being up at 6:30 a.m. only to work into the night.  Suppose its good news though that supposedly our last day of work is supposed to be this thursday. but who knows.  but for sure it will be this week.  bad news I didn't know it was so soon, so i haven't lined up a for sure job.  yeah I've been working on getting a job at home depot, but my fucking dad hasn't followed through on his end (hes basically the asst. manager of one of the stores).  Once again my father fails to see the importance of the very few things I ask of him.  But I did have a job offer from one of my connections at the bar, I think i'll call her today.  Shes the owner of a courier service, so i'd be delivering packages and such. 

But anyways, I'm tired. I want to go home so bad for some reason. Hell being able to be at my own place for more than like 5-6 hours would be nice too.  But I want to go home, I want to see C.R. even though I know shes not speaking to me. We have a former players soccer game on saturday that I have to go to. So I'll be home for that, and if i'm done with work by then, maybe, just maybe i'll stay the weekend. 

But for now I have to finish getting dressed and go take down more christmas shit and ride around in damn box truck all day.  YAY!!!!  have a good day, cause i know mine will be very very long. ADIOS