The feeling of a dream awakening, of being caught up in a whirlwind of emotion.  Fearing the realizations of a past full of destruction and despair.  Viewing the full spectrum of mistakes like a topography map, every layer and feature displayed like the scars across our bodies.   Struggling  to find steady ground in this storm of bombarding memories, the chaos is consuming and treacherous.  The guilt and shame like a plague of epic proportions.  The shock so incredibly bright and cruel, a momentary blindness, yet a vision that cannot be unseen.   A ship is meant to sink, a fortress is meant to fall, our mind is meant to crumble.  The clarity of not hiding from the truth, to persevere through the excruciating pain is to welcome yourself to existence.   Reality is breath-taking but not always monotonous and smooth.  Find your center and calm your storm before it eats you alive.